In the name of research, I pulled out an old journal from ten years ago.
Shaking my head at the fact that I haven’t learned ANY dating lessons.
Those who ignore history…


I put away the journal when I found what I needed. Right then, a ghost appeared.

IG notification: hey girl! That ex that you can’t shake just liked a photo of you! 

My reaction:


Texted one of my girls a screencap.

“Why don’t you block him then?”


So I did. Unfriended him. Blocked. Removed. Him. Along with others.

It’s not 10 years ago.

I WILL NOT ignore history.

I’m giving you up
I’ve forgiven it all
You set me free

Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We’ve gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain’t kids no more



Last night in weird dreams…

In my dream, I had a crucial meeting with “Jenn Whitfield”. Possibly a job interview.

(I have NO idea who she is)
I was running late. I was in an apartment (not mine) trying to get my dog organized (because for some reason I was bringing him along).
I couldn’t find the other shoe. No matter what pair of shoes I chose, I couldn’t find the other shoe. At one point, I cried out in frustration, “you HAVE TO BE FUCKING KIDDING ME!!”.
Black suede knee high boot? Couldn’t find it. Black and white Mary Janes? Nope. Patent pump? No go.
(these aren’t shoes I’ve ever owned or have been interested in owning). 
I look up Jenn’s info on my iPad to message her via LinkedIn but I can’t get a signal. Looking at the clock at the beginning of my dream, I had 15 minutes before I was due to leave for this appointment.
By the time I looked Jenn up, it was 15 minutes AFTER the appointment/interview was due to begin. I burst into tears and try to find a cab in the street in the rain.

To dream that you are late signifies your fear of change and your ambivalence about seizing an opportunity.

to dream of changing shoes: may represent a major change in life; such as a change of jobs or change in a relationship.

To dream that you are under stress, reflects the actual stress that you are experiencing in your waking life. The stress has carried over into your dream state where even in your sleep, you are unable to relax. The dream may call attention to some setbacks, obstacles, self-doubts, or criticism that you are facing in some waking situation or relationship. You are on the verge of breaking down and need to take some leisure time off to distance yourself from these issues.
Me? Stressed?